A song that describes me now:

I stumbled upon this amazing song, which has an amazing rythm (latin) with Greek elements -of course.
I like her voice and my friends know it...
But the lyrics... oh the lyrics!

Enjoy my translation:


"I am bored of giving (my all), yet receiving only lie
I am getting it out of my chest: I am leaving, we reached the (our) end
I am reaviling you my cards, because I want to be fair
It s high time I tidied my life!

I am going to be living independent
And i will be living/enjoying (the) every day
And from now on whomever annoys me,
will be removed from my life!!

I am going to be living independent
and I am going to be the person I want to be
it's not worth it to suffer a lifetime for others

I m wandering in the streets having thousands of memories
I am putting myself before anything else
and I don t want you to come back!!

A gipsy woman told me it is time i lived my life,
burned my past and erase you forever

I am going to be living independent
And i will be living/enjoying (the) every day
And from now on whomever annoys me,
will be removed from my life!!

I am going to be living independent
and I am going to be the person I want to be
it's not worth it to suffer in my life for others"



Recently I haven't found any other song which can describe me more than that one.
I m not sure if I highlighted all the important lyrics though. And as anonymous wrote in his recent-mysterious comment, I have always wanted to be independent.

Now, I am.

And I am about to take very serious decision for my life.

Prepare your binoculars folks...

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New contact form

Hello all,

I just added a contact form for those who really wanna reach me somehow, but are shy to publish a comment or they want to have some deep conversation .  Whatsoevere.
  If you wish, you can request me an autograph too. Lol.

The one chance!

   On my yesterday's post, I somehow wished that noone of the people who belong to the past should return. But as always, a rule has its exception too.  There is only one, male person whom I would like to have again the old relationship we 've had. Not just a meeting, but the same relationship, which would be completely mature this time.
   When I violently took this person out of my life, was very painful and of course my mom played her role there. Unfortunatelly she was wrong and I was young... I wish I had a chance to explain myself (my mom's side basically, but nevermind).
    I thought of calling, then I was discouraged by the thought of him hanging up on me. Then i thought of sending a letter. Again, a thought of my words burning in a ligher's flame, torn me into pieces. The last one, was to invite him secretely on a meeting, after flying to his city. This time, the discouraging thought was him having a stroke and me not habving the proper time, money and address.
   Also, why would I mess his life up nowadays and out of the blue?
   After my dissappearance I found out you became big, important. You chased this dream that got born while I was still there. I only wish I have helped you more, even thought eventually you made it without me, and you are simply amazing.


   This person is Toutoulis. Or with his real name "Thodoris".

   Deep inside me I know that you might read my words from time to time. And I am sure you haven't forgotten me. I want you to know I haven't forgotten you and I owe you a lot (seriously a lot). You taught me that life is not always a game, by showing me the dangers.  I wanted you to advice me on stuff during my life, but eventually I made it without you as you can see. That doesn't mean that I wouldn'e love to have you around again...
   My last relationship wouldn't make you proud as I used to think during its period. My last relationship for you would be just me (along with him) making fun of myself. You would even call me a victim, once again. But most important... you would have warned me!
   But I guess, you would tell me "that's life" and that's how I learn. True that.

   Toutouli, if by any chance you are reading this sentences, please keep in mind that I paid back, for the last 6 years, all the pain I made you feel.
   I wish only good for you and I live with the memories of you. 

My reality

   In this reality I am leaving in, there are no narrow-minded people who would accuse me for not knowing a particular song of a very famous rock band. In this life I am living in, noone would care If I have watched the recently released hollywood movie. In the life I made, noone would mock my music taste or my early-night-I-go-to-bed  habbit. Or that I dislike clubs.

   In my world, people get excited when I tell them how much I love languages and travelling. Some of them might wanna know about my unique style of clothes (the new one of course).  People admire me for my mind, not my fucking boyfriend. People give me "hats off" for overcoming all the pain I have gonne throughout my life. Some people in occasions have called me a diplomat. A proffessional.
   On my side, I admire myself as well. There is no more jealousy of other people, since in this age, I have achieved more than I thought I would. Thanks to those strangers who believed in me, more than I did and they showed it to me by actions. Unfortunatelly, people who had been close to me wheather were neutral or even very negative. How many times I heard the phrase "it is so difficult, you won't make it". Oh jesus, I remember the people, the occasions ... People who thing small, achieve small. If your dream is small, that's ok. But if you want to  achieve more, bigger dreams then there are no barriers.


   I feel so alive!

    Plus, I feel such relief that I left a bunch of people behind me. Not only in the past, but behind me. As we say in greek "eat my dust".
   That unspoken race or rivarly between us, is not there anymore. You know why? Because I 've beaten you, in a game that you have staged with all the favours on your side. The odds were against me so strongly, that you were claiming yourself a winner since the beginning of this stupid game. I didn't want to play. I was asking you to stop. However you were pushing even more, with satisfaction hidden behind your (pretended to be) innocent face. Despite your time spent on this...project, the victory is mine!

 
   This world in which I have escaped, is a world I selected and I personally created. With all the pros and the cons (is there actually any con? I doubt) . It is a real place, in which I allow people to enter wheather I throw them out if anything...

   Yes, I will get hurt again. Yes, I will feel loneliness probably. Yes, I will face difficulties. But now, I am sure about my capabilities and most important, about myself!

   Special thanks to people who tried to keep me back and made this victory even more prestigious! Too bad for those who remained attached to their boring routine and their misery (whomever those people are).

   Cheers!




   

Για κάποιο λόγο

Μιας και μου αρέσουν τα τραγούδια με μυστήριο, ο Οικονομόπουλος έρχεται και πάλι να μου προσφέρει ένα ωραιότατο τραγούδι με πολύ νόημα:





Θα παίξει πολύ σε repeat φυσικά. Με μια διαφορά!

Δεν το αφιερώνω πουθενά, γιατί πολύ απλά ο Νίκος (λολ), αναφέρει κάπου
"ίσως κάποτε θελήσεις να τα βρούμε".
Εγώ, όμως, δε θέλω να τα ξανά βρω με κανέναν.

Όσοι απουσιάζουν απο τη ζωή μου πλέον, έχουν λόγο. Δικό τους ή δικό μου. 

The one word:

     BASTARD !


PS: This word will insult at least three people.
Good.