Reflections upon life

   Thinking of my present and my future, I figured out I am jealous of one thing: LANGUAGES! Several times I wish I could speak any weird language (for some, even useless), such as : Turkish Hindi, Bulgarian, Russian, Arabic, Dutch, and so much more...
   Yes, I have started learning Italian systematically (as much as my work schedule allowed me), but with all these ups and downs, I have put it aside (3nd time fucking life). My level is around A2. And something similar is my Czech. So, I do not consider myself as someone who speaks those languages. And if i can be honest here, I don't really believe I will ever speak any other language fluently rather than English (and Greek). Seems like I can get bits and bites from here and there. Maybe I rely to much on google translation (I don't even use data on my phone for my everyday communication).
   Something else I blame is my nature. I am not as outgoing as I was in the past (Nikos, you are not alone). I do not hangout with people who speak only Czech, only Italian or only Hindi (to push my limits). All speak English as well. And nobody is really willing to get more than 5 mins to answer questions or really teach those languages. I pay for Italian and now I am about to rethink how I will move on once my package is over (the company paid for it).

   Languages are the only thing that I have always been interested in. But my mind tells me that since I do not have any particular level until my age (when others speak 4 or even 5 languages), then I will never make it. Because it needs [1] time, which I had plenty in my teenage years, but also [2] money, which I hadn't.  Now it is vice versa more or less.

New template!

 Hey, I changed the layout as the previous was not really clear.

Leave your comments if anything is not matched or aligned, let me know.

Looking forward

In a few days I will be visiting my friend in London and shortly after I am -again- going to Greece. It's my brother's wedding!
I am genuinely happy we are adding this girl in the family as I found a dear friend in her. She is one of the people I am gladly meeting when I reach for those days.

I urgently need a break as the stress level had risen up a lot.

I am also visiting some psychologist not only to put my thoughts and feelings in place, but mainly for career counseling.

"Whaaat!!???"

Yes.

I shall never forget that I almost gave up on my life due to so many problems especially with my career path.

Now that in the past year I have tried and tested my possibilities I can finally see why people around me where asking me not to waste myself or my talents back in Greece ( being involved with low class people also...) and why some insisted on me doing more and more!

Yes, I m going to do that.

I am not going to say "I am back" because I never left, but... Get prepared, cause I AM! 

I resigned !

~*  Having two months of notice period, I took advantage of the end of July and I handed over my resignation letter. And along with this, I gave them back all the stress, the anxiety and the lies they fed me. That promotion, came along with strict deadlines. I need to tell you that I can deal with deadlines, but I cannot bare the lies... "Yes, you ll get it soon", and it never came... it s the 5th month now but still it is not coming...
   On the contrary, more tasks and work came, along with health issues. "Take your vacations days" they said, as if I had a back up. No, it was only me who couldn't take a single day off and I had to cooperate with the most uncooperative people I have met in my work-life so far. Unprofessional-ism flooded from everywhere and I was alone, fighting with different fronts of attack. "I m not a superwoman", I said to my team leader when I was asked for the reasons of resignation. And those are my last 4 weeks here, since they owe me 18 days of vacations. I won't be able to train someone on time, I guarantee that. But, sorry, not my fault anymore!
  Along with all this, today came the results from the doctor examination: "Please, make an appointment with me, we need to discuss something". F*ck me.   I am terrified. And I m not pregnant, if that's what you mean. It could be something more serious. Stress can cause many problems. I have been dealing with many health matters lately and due to my hectic work, I was even unable to attend the hospital. Great.... Let's see what I have to face now.

   Braking down for a job every other day is not worth the payment. Being used as a toy and not for your brains, can cause psychological damage. But it is not irreversible. I will rise again and I will keep growing. Just take a look on my resume and have me in an interview to let you know all the amazing things I am able to do, if given the right opportunity.


   It was high time I resigned and I have no remorse at all. Going forward. *~


If the above text is imagination or reality, it is up to you to decide.