Exams are coming, I m going crazy

 Tormented, broken dreams.

None of this is real and it will not be. You exist but you are not mine.

I am not yours either though. Lol!

Online

Who are you eventually? 

You torment my dreams, you come in my reality, you become my reality.

You are real, aren't you? Are you?

So many questions. Did you exist?

I have never touched you, not as I wanted to. But simultaneously it is good you never touched me either. I saw what would happen. Fire.

My favourite element. 

It can destroy everything. Dangerous, malicious, "bad" as you would say.

Now you are far. Further than ever.  It's better this way. 

Παραμυθιάζομαι- Παντελής Παντελίδης

Your songs are keeping me company. Forever.

But you are not online any more...

Prague again- update

Seeing old friends, my kitty and study like always.

Never imagined that another degree would need so much of effort in studying terms.

Buuuuuuuuuuut, it will be even harder now because on Monday I am starting a new job. Next to it, I have been already teaching English to a friend of mine for the last 2 months. No more cleaning jobs (something I had been doing since November)...

My new job will have me as a financial assistant. A job that includes a lot of elements of what I had been already doing in my past jobs. For that reason, we went shopping for new clothes here in Prague, because what I used to wear was "student attire" most of the time. The prices in the Netherlands are extreme for everything: clothes, food, rent...

My rent is around 400 eur per month, for a room in a shared apartment. Now, with the job, I hope I can make it easier...