The wedding part 17

Indeed he left the next week for the upcoming month. The time passed pretty fast with some phone calls in the meantime but not much of touch. She was busy meeting with William who helped her renovate her house, paint the walls and select few new furniture. They spent some time watching movies and going on dates. But her heart could not forget Leo. The sex with William was not love, she couldn't feel it.  Leo returned but they still hadn't met. The papers got ahold of his divorce and had him giving interviews and kept him busy and low profile. 

He was calling and texting her occasionally. "I miss you", he was telling her. The time was not kind to them though. They couldn't meet. So she continued her life normally bonding with William.

One evening he showed up at her door uninvited with flowers in his hands. She was getting ready to meet William, so she was caught by surprise. 

- I was not expecting you, she said to him.

- I wanted to see you, I missed you, he replied to her.

He leaned for a kiss while giving her the flowers. But she backed off.

- I don't know Leo. It 's so complicated. I have moved on.

- We can move on together. 

- It will take time. I saw you on the magazines giving interviews about your divorce. I don't know for how long I can keep hiding.

- But don't you have any feelings for me?

- I still do, Leo, but I have a man who takes care of me as I deserve. I cannot let him go. Who knows what this story between us brings. And now if you 'll excuse me, I have to go and meet him.

He left but his pride was hurt. He wanted her, the same way. Plus, now he was excited that his divorce was on its way and he would soon be free to spend his time with her.

The evening with William was great. They discussed about many different topics and even books they liked, had a coffee and then ice cream. They ended in her place and for the first time they slept together on her new bed.

Few more days down the line and the communication with Leo was cut. He respected her wish and had left her alone.

On her birthday William prepared a great surprise for her. He had booked a table where Leo used to sing in the nights and took her there without her knowing. They both liked his songs and they sat near the stage. She knew someone would sing, but did not know who it would be. So her surprise was immense when he came on stage. 

He wished everyone good evening and started the program. He took a while to see her in the crowd but when he did, he couldn't sing properly. His emotions overtook him and he ordered a bottle of champagne for them. William was confused but Jessica could cover it up saying that he knew Leo personally because he sang in her wedding party and probably recognized her. 

The wedding part 16

"I did it", he texted her. "I asked for a divorce". She was with William. He was so sweet, he had arranged to make her dinner at her place, so he was cooking. She ignored the text for a couple of hours, till she received another one : "When can I see you?". William was now cleaning up. She texted back "I cannot tonight". "Is he there?" Leo asked about William. 

What did he want now? Congratulations?! She took the phone back in her hands and texted back "please don't contact me for few days". She wanted to give him some space. Or her? She was not sure. But she knew things take and need time. 

William hugged her from behind and they ended up having lukewarm sex in the bedroom.

However, she enjoyed the time with him very much. They could do all the normal things a couple can do. Go on dates, meet outside, watch a movie in a theater, spend actual time together. It had started wearing her off that she couldn't do all these things with Leo. All their meetings had to be short and secret, minus few getaways they had together. But his phone would always ring. Whether actual work or something with his wife. And if he was getting a divorce now, their meetings would have to be even more discreet. Maybe not so short anymore though, if he had to move out. But then again, the kids were in the middle. She didn't want kids of her own, but having kids from someone else? Could she do it? She was unsure.

Few days later Jessica and Leo met again. This time they got to enjoy a full movie at her place without the disturbance of his wife. Until her phone rang. She silenced it. 

- Who is this? Leo asked.

- William, she said sharply.

- Are you still seeing him?

- Yes. 

- I don't like that. 

- And I don't like the fact that I cannot have you fully mine. 

- Be patient baby, the time will come, I promise. The process should go smoothly, she agreed to give it to me. 

- I know... But the life's clock is ticking... and I m not sure about us.

- I am, he kissed her softly. I have something else to tell you. I got a job in Germany for a month. I am going there next week. It happened today and I totally forgot about it. 

- Congratulations, she smiled at him.

The wedding part 15

She spent the next day with William at a local restaurant and then a café- bar with the river view. They had a nice conversation which led to the musical preferences they had. They had similar choices. They both also liked karaoke and surprises. 

The one who had a surprise was Jessica when she saw Leo in the mall, hidden behind glasses and a hat. But he recognized his wife and kids. He was fairly famous and he had been in the magazines a few times, where she had seen the pictures of his children. He didn't see her though so they just moved on. This incident, however, made them cut their day short and part ways, as she said she was feeling ill.

She went home and started thinking. This woman's face... How could she do that to her? She knew the pain of a divorce, but now there were children involved. She was feeling bad to make her divorce her husband. She took her phone and messaged Leo : "I cannot do this anymore". His response was almost instant : "Tell that to my face. I 'll be in your place in 30 minutes".

She waited. And he arrived.

He looked furious. The moment she opened the door, he just glanced at her and then grabbed her by the shoulders and kissed her with anger, lust, love and hatred. She was truly shocked. He closed the door behind them and pushed her against the wall.

- Tell that to me again, he ordered.

Silence. 

- I cannot do this anymore, she whispered in shock.

He kept kissing her. He moved to her neck and unbuttoned the top button of her shirt.

- But I want you, she said...

- I want you too, he replied and kept unbuttoning and kissing.

From the wall, he lifted her up and took her to the couch, where they made love one more time.  When their sweet time was up, the reality hit back. A text message from his wife.

- I hate seeing you go, she said. 

- I hate that too. So, did you think what I told you yesterday?

- About the divorce?

- Yes.

- That's what I tried telling you earlier. I cannot do it. I cannot break her heart.

- You won't do anything. It will be up to me. And honestly, we are having so many fights lately, that it becomes toxic for the kids too. Just tell me you will be mine when all this is over. If I ask a divorce now God knows when the papers will be done. 

- You are famous, they will get you with priority, she joked.

- That's not funny. It will have an impact on both of us. I will not be able to be coming here anymore, we will have to get back to the hotels, hide even more and so on.

- I know, and I haven't given it any good thought. I just knew I cannot. But now that you are leaving for one more time, I know I don't want it to happen anymore. Can't we take some time apart? It will be good for you to think about the divorce.

- No honey, you don't understand. I am going home and asking for a divorce, tonight. I have nothing to think about. I have to think of my kids. What I want to understand is if you will still love me the same and maybe think of having something more with me. You could meet my kids one day for example.

- You are running. It scares me. This reality is so new. But first things first. Go talk to your wife if you are so determined and we talk afterwards. 

- Sounds fair. 

He said and he did.

The wedding part 14

 She invited him to her place. He showed up on time, well dressed and with a bottle of wine in his hands, chocolates and another bouquet of flowers. 

- These are for you, he handed her the gifts.

- Leo, you needn't bring anything, she said sweetly. 

- Yes, but it is my first time in your house. Anyway, I want to show you my love to you and how much you mean to me. 

- But I have moved on now. I am seeing William. How did you find my address?

They sat down. She served some of the wine.

- I followed you after work today. I actually saw him.

She was in awe. She didn't know if that was sweet or creepy. 

- I know, I shouldn't have done that, but I was desperate to see you. I did not intend to scare you, but when I saw you with him, smiling and holding hands, I felt like I was losing a part of me. I want to keep seeing you though. Can we find a way? I am not happy with my life anymore without you, said and stroked her face.

- What are you talking about? How can we even make this work out between us?

- So, there is still "us"? He smiled broadly.

- I mean... I still have feelings for you. I cannot forget you so simply, she looked into his eyes. She had a soft spot for him. And this was so unexpected...

They shared a kiss with even more passion than what they usually had. They hadn't met for a couple of weeks now and they hadn't even message each other. He wanted her very much, this, he knew.  She wanted him too though. But she felt confused.

- We need to stop kissing, he said. I came here to talk. Can we find a way to be together?

- Leo, you are married, let me remind you! she scolded him.

- I know, but what if I wasn't anymore?

- What are you talking about? 

- A divorce. I am talking about a divorce. Would you be with me then?

- Leo, I never thought about such a possibility, we have never discuss it before!

- Yes, we are discussing it now.

- But now, William is also in the picture. What to say? I don't know. 

- Does he treat you well? he sighed. 

- Yes, I have really good time with him. He is a great guy, but is missing something. I have to admit there is not as much passion as we used to have.

- Used to? he cried out.

He kissed her again. Their lips connected, one. Their heartbeats in sync. They were one. He hugged her strongly and she touched his face. He stroked her face again and she pulled his hair. 

But he stopped her. 

- I want to know Jessica, he uttered.

- What? What do you need to know? she asked confused.

- What are we doing? Where are we? And what?

- I need time to process all this Leo, she expressed.

He grabbed her hands. Then he kissed them.

- I will give you your time.

His phone rang. It was his wife. As always. He had to go. And went.

The wedding part 13

The days went by without any messages from either side. She had his number saved now, but it was of little use to delete it as she knew it by heart. But nonetheless, she did anyway.

In the meantime she had moved alone and she met with William once more after work... And there he posed a very important question:

- Are you still in this... situation-ship you had mentioned?

- No, not anymore. We broke it off few days ago.

- So, now we can be officially together? he grinned.

- I would like to take things slow if you don't mind. You are a great guy, of course I am not going to give you any pep talk now. But...

- I understand darling, you got out of a divorce and some situation, let's take it slow. I just want to keep seeing you, maybe a bit more. That's all. 

- Thanks, she smiled to him.

When she returned home her doorbell rang. It was a delivery boy with some flowers for her. With a card this time. It said : "I miss you so much, Leo".

Few moments later she received a text : "have you received my flowers?". He knew he was now free to text her that Jacob was not in the picture, but still wanted to be discreet and therefore he did not call her. 

She didn't know what to do. How did he even know her address? She was happy that he was also thinking about her, because there was not a single moment she did not think about him. She replied "They are beautiful, thank you". "I want to see you", he texted back. Now the texting was instant. "How do you know my address?", she asked. "If I can come in an hour, I will explain everything". 

The wedding part 12

She took some stuff and went to her parents with the excuse of a visit alone. She eventually told them what had happened but not that she was in love with another man. Only half the truth. 

She wanted to call Leo, to tell him the news. "Hi", she texted. "Hello baby", he texted back. "We need to talk". "Meet me at 6 for dinner at hotel seasons?" . "Ok, but don 't book a room". "Ok".

They met at the lobby and went to the restaurant for dinner.

- I m getting a divorce, she announced him.

He almost choked on his food. 

- It is not because of you, she explained. 

- What happened? That is so soon?

- Why, aren't you happy that you can have me more now?

- Of course I cannot hide that fact, but I am still married. I still have kids. 

- I know, this fact changes nothing between us. I just wanted you to know. 

- Have you told anything about me to him?

- Of course not. I am not stupid nor do I want to hurt his feelings. 

- I see. So, now you can be more... mine?

- Yes, I am stupidly in love with you.

They ended their dinner and parted their ways. The time ahead would be difficult for everyone. They had to be even more careful till they signed the divorce papers. In fact they had to cancel the wedding which was a faster procedure. And Jacob wouldn't make it easy.

He sent her flowers at her parents house, pleaded for another meeting, where they met but they said the exact same things. How she did not have feelings anymore and how he wanted to win her over again. But she did not have any of it. She was adamant in her decision and the papers were signed peacefully from the "JJ" couple, few months later. 

In the meantime, the secret couple kept meeting occasionally. However, one day, Jessica met someone.  And this someone made her feel special. His name was William. She explained her situation to him from the beginning. She said she was seeing someone with no future due to complexity, but was open to meet someone new after her divorce. 

The rendezvous with William were going excellent. She was now ready to open her cards to Leo. She asked and they met. 

- I m seeing someone, she said calmly.

- Is it serious, he kept kissing her.

- I think it is. 

He stopped. And now what? Was that it? Were they breaking up after a wonderful year of lies and deception? Did this time really come now?

- And now what? he asked.

- I don't know. I thought I would let you know. He knows I am in a complicated situation with the one I m seeing but open to the market, she smirked.

- I don't want to lose you. I will do everything for you.

- You have said that again, Leo. But I have to move on with my life. I am afraid we cannot continue for much longer. Let's break it off quietly.

- Quietly... After I make you moan, I will! he said and pushed her on the bed.

The rest, went wild. He removed her clothes and tore her underwear, licked her private parts while she was groaning. Afterwards, he made her suck his hard cock and finally he fucked her pussy like there was no tomorrow. They both came and fell on the bed.

- Are we really breaking up? he asked when he caught his breath.

- I think so, she kissed him.

They exchanged some last words of love and they parted their ways.

The wedding part 11

They lit on fire. He placed her on the bed and removed her shirt. He grabbed her boobs and she removed his belt. The shoes were somewhere on the floor and the kisses where coming and going. She kissed his neck, then his torso. The clothes got removed one by one, slow but with lust. They were dying for each other. 

He took her nipple in his mouth, she left a sweet moan. He cupped her breasts and she sighed. He was hard and naked. Her pussy was ready for him, but no, he had to eat her up first. And that's how he proceeded. 

In her turn, she blew him so much till he was ready to cum. But he didn't let her. He took his dick, wore a condom and fucked her hard. They were both moaning from pleasure till they orgasmed together. They made love again and again that day.

He lit a cigarette and passed it to her .

- Do I smoke?

- We usually share one after sex, he explained.  But you don't smoke often anymore.

She remembered. She was trying to quit for the past few months. 

They kissed again and made love one more time. It was as if nothing could stop them from each other. The moment they would look at each other's eyes, the spark was turning into fire and they would let it devour them.

- I love you, he said. 

- I love you too, she replied.

They went home to continue their lie. 

For a couple of days there were no messages, or meet ups. They got consumed by their daily life. Jessica had gotten back all of her memories and in a few days she would remove the cast. She texted him : "How are you?" . It was their secret code. A "hi" or a "how are you?". To check if the other person is available with their phone in proximity.

The reply came much later. "I am good, you?", another code for when the respondent was late in their reply. They remained typical until they were in sync. "I want to see you", she texted. He replied immediately "I can't. My son is sick". 

They ended up not meeting till she removed the cast and stayed with only the crutches. Everything else healed. The wound in her heart was not able to heal. She had no feelings for Jacob. 

- I want us to talk.

- Talk to me baby.

- Listen, I want a divorce. I am not happy in this relationship, she announced to him. He fell of the sky.

- What are you talking about? We aren't married for 2 months! We are together for 3 years and you are divorcing me now?

- I don' t have feelings for you after the accident Jacob. I cannot seem to find them.

- But that can change, right? Right? he desperately seek for confirmation.

- I don t think so, I have all my memories back but not my feelings. I will go live with my parents for a while.

- But baby... wait, he asked. 

- Wait for what? For my feelings to come back? I am so sorry Jacob, it is over. 

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She felt like she was reborn. She touched death and said hasta la vista baby. She was back in her seventeens. She wanted this guy. That's all she knew. If she was not already in love with him, she fell now.

- Am I... am I in love with you? she asked hesitantly. 

- Oh baby, we are so much in love, you have no idea. 

- I thought so... The kiss was... so familiar. 

- I am glad I can kiss those lips.

- But I am married! she exclaimed.

- Don't worry baby. I knew this. I am married too. I have two kids as well. You knew this.

- I did? 

She felt her heart sinking deep inside her, shrinking like it wants to get out of existence. 

- You did. I am not lying to you. 

- And how come do I put up with it? she wondered.

- We le to our partners about where we are...

- No, I mean how can I stand sharing you? I think I was truly in love with you!

- We don't discuss about these things baby. Each one copes differently. 

- Why did we get married to other people? I heard from Jacob that we got married this month. I have so many questions! she panicked.

He hugged her and shushed her. 

- Shh, it will be alright baby. You will remember. Maybe go to bed now, you are tired. It was not very good for you to see me and get to know our story. It upset you.  By the way, I was married already when I met you, I had my family, he said while holding her face. 

He kissed her again.

- This is to show you how much I love you.

- I know, she replied. 

- Goodnight.

- Good night, she replied while he left.

She slept the whole night until the doctors woke her up to give her medication. She was checked and asked some routine questions. Then Jacob appeared. He kissed her. His kiss did not feel the same as Leo's. This kiss was... dead. Had no emotion.

- How do you feel honey? he asked.

- A little better actually, she replied. I had some very vivid dreams and it helped me remember few things about the accident and some other old memories of mine. 

- That's great! Did you remember me?

- No, not yet, but thank you for doing all that for me.

- Of course, you are my beautiful wife! he kissed her cheek. 

The day was like any other in a hospital. Boring.

 

A message broke the boredom "How are you?", from Leo. She took her phone and pretended a yawn. 

- Why don't you go home to rest?

- Are you sleepy? I will go and work then.

She wanted to see Leo so badly. Jacob left for home and she texted Leo and asked him to visit her. He came as soon as he could. She had again fallen asleep.

- Jessica? said while he entered. She didn't wake up so he sat next to her and got her hand into his.  "What will I do without you? Tell me!" he spoke. 

She woke up slowly. 

- You came! she smiled to him.

- I am here baby. He kissed her with passion.

- I remember you. I remember everything about you! 

She was so happy, she finally remembered Leo and their story. But what about Jacob? why couldn't she remember Jacob? Why was she so disinterested in him?

Leo was extra happy that this finally happened and told her he was glad it didn't actually last long.

- Only a day! he exclaimed.

He kissed her hands. 

The days continued with few more visits from friends and family while she was gaining strength and her memory slowly back. What she was not getting back, was her feelings towards Jacob. On the contrary, the flame for Leo was growing bigger and bigger. They met another two times and one he almost fell on Jacob who thankfully did not recognize him, nor stopped to check him out. 

She was finally out of the hospital and was resting at home. She had off from work for a month till her leg heals properly. Jacob was able to go to the office and Jessica was using crutches. So one of the days that Jacob was at work, she took a taxi to meet Leo in a near by hotel.

They met at the room 212 with discretion.

- How are you? he asked.

- Now that I see you, I am much better, she replied. 

- Same, he said and gave her a passionate kiss. 

The wedding part 9

 The next day Jessica was in an accident. Her brakes went silent and she crushed her car on a wall with considerable speed. She had to be transported to the hospital where they did all the necessary check ups and found that she had to stay in the hospital for a couple of days and that she suffered a temporary amnesia. She had no memories of her own, nothing to remind her of who she was or what she was doing before the accident. They found her phone and notified her husband. 

Jacob rushed to the hospital and did not leave her side for hours upon hours. The doctors asked him not to worry as her amnesia would be just temporary but she had to remain admitted as she had to wait for her situation to improve. On top of that she had broken her leg and hurt her hand severely. Jacob took care of the remainders of the car and therefore he had to leave to go for some documentation. That s when her phone had a message from him "where are you?". She replied "In the hospital, I had an accident apparently, but I have some kind of amnesia. Who is this?"

Her phone had no sender. She couldn't remember that phone by heart although it reminded her of something! "Fuck, which hospital? Is he there, when can I come? This is Leo". And then one more:  "You remember me, right?". In fact she did not. Did she even have to answer this message? She was not sure. She left her phone aside and curled into the bed. The hospital felt cold. Who was she? She needed a nap.

She woke up with family members around her, as well as flowers for the get better soon wishes. Everyone was talking to her suddenly, and she felt dizzy. So she asked them to quiet down and they did. They were now talking again altogether, by whispering! As if that made any difference. This headache was super persistent. She had hit her head anyways. A nurse came to give her some medicine and asked them to disperse. They spoke to her for a while and her phone rang again: "I want to see you. Can I visit as a friend?". Could he? She couldn't remember a thing. Jacob was introduced to her by the doctors as her husband and then her whole family and friends by asking whom she did remember and whom not.  She decided to be honest : "I don' t remember you, I have family here".

The time passed and she received another message : " Read quickly and delete. This is Leo, we are in a relationship for the past 6 months, secretly. I love you like nothing else and I am worried about you. I need to see you".

She suddenly had a warm rush, a feeling of "knowingness". It was so familiar. But nope, still nothing about who Leo was. She remembered her name was Jessica and she quickly deleted the message. She had amnesia, she was not stupid. She had to meet this Leo guy, to see if it will spark anything as she was left feeling empty and aching with body pains. She asked Jacob and everyone who had stayed,  to go home to rest because she wanted to sleep. In fact, she texted Leo "West hospital, they are all leaving now, I ll be alone, but I feel tired". She needed rest and she had to sleep. She pressed ok on the delete confirmation and slept while holding her phone.

Half an hour later Leo was in the hospital with a bouquet of flowers. He had no card written so she could give any excuse she felt like if anyone saw. But no one would of course ask. 

- Jessica? he said softly, while touching her forehead. He didn't want to wake her up.

She woke up, opened her eyes. 

- Leo? Is that you?

- Do you remember me?

- No, but we were texting, I remember that. 

- Oh, I hoped you could remember me. 

- Sorry. 

He sat near her. 

- Are you in pain?

- I am not right now, I am hooked with medications.

- What happened to you? 

- They told me that I crushed into a wall. I was not texting, but ... now I remember! The breaks didn't work! she exclaimed.

- Oh poor thing, he said and kissed her forehead softly.

She felt warmth. She felt she knew him. She felt like she belonged to him. 

- What all do I need to know? she asked him.

- What do you mean? 

- How do I know you. I think you are famous?

- Ha, he laughed awkwardly. I am a singer, he said. But we met in a library. You love books!

- Ah yea, I remember I love books. What I don't remember is you.

- Ah yeah, let me help you, he said and kissed her lips gently. 

The wedding part 8

Few days passed without much talking. They accidentally met at the library again. It had been a long while since they last met and everything started.

- How are you? he asked her while picking a book.

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- Missing you, she replied quietly. 

- I know, but you disappeared. And I cannot stand the thought of him with you. He looked deeply in her eyes. 

- It is the same for me, she said and put a book back in the shelf.  I have read this one, it is interesting, she pointed out.

- I know that one too. What I don't know is how we move on...

- As we are unfortunately. I told you, what we have has an expiration date. But is it time to end it? Did something happen?

- No, nothing. And does he suspect anything?

- No, not at all. shall we meet tonight?

- Yes, I would like that. 

And that s how they ended in a new hotel room. Surrounded by lust, love and limited time. They made love like it was their last time. They anyways never knew when the last time would actually come. 

- I am still a little bitter about your marriage, he said, while they were sharing the cigarette. 

- I don't understand that honey. You are already married, she replied.

- I know, but I had a stupid hope, you would break up with him and we could be more... together. Somehow. Where did you tell him you are?

- I told him I would go out with friends. You? Performing? 

- Exactly. 

- Then let's work these vocal cords even more, she said and kissed his neck. 

This was an immediate turn on for him. Therefore there was another round of love and lust. When the time was up, she took a taxi and went home, while he drove his car. They parted with some small time difference, just as not to raise suspicions. 

Their lives went on normally. She slept next to her fiancé, while he kissed his kids goodnight and slept with his wife. She was in a mood for some sexy time, but he was obviously tired after all that exhausting night with Jessica. 

The wedding part 7

This meeting led to one more, where they came even closer to each other, he admitted he had caught feelings for her. But he said he wished to respect her relationship and not move on. However, she also admitted she had started getting feelings for him and therefore they gave their first kiss. He was shivering and her heart was ready to explode. Few days later a message was received from her : "There is something I need to tell you", and on their next meeting he spilled the beans. He admitted he was in love with her and was thinking he may lose her now. 

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But she did not back up. She stayed there, and gave him a soft kiss on his lips.  He was taken aback and stayed still. She stole one more quick kiss. "I don't want to lose you", he whispered. And then he pushed her against the wall and kept kissing her. 

For few days the books were forgotten or a front for a meet up. They had only kissed so far. It wasn't up until she mentioned that her fiancé would be absent for a couple of days that she invited him over and they made love. He was holding and touching her like he had never touched a woman before. He would move her into his arms with ease. He was bigger than her. She looked very petit in front of him.  She came to his hands multiple times that day and then they continued for some more until they orgasmed together. 

They were both happy in each other's arms. When they were together, the time did not matter anymore. However, the reality, a phone call, a message, the limited time would bring them back harshly. They were both leading two different lives. One with their family/ partner and one with each other. But they were happy this way...

The wedding part 6

- I missed you so much, he said. 

- I missed you too. I so wish you were in his place instead! 

He shushed her. 

- You know that's impossible, he hushed her. He planted a kiss on her forehead.

- I know, I just wish! she nagged sweetly.

Their hug, firmed. They were holding each other as if it was the first and the last time. Every time. 

They valued every moment together and they tried to be as normal as they could be and not to meet up only to have sex. They were going to the same gym just to see each other from afar and exchange a typical hi or steal a kiss occasionally in the parking lot if they were in sync.

They couldn't be together. When they met she was engaged and he already had a family. She was not supposed to get married so soon, but the plans changed and here they were now. 

They met one day at the library. They reached for the same book. They awkwardly smiled to each other, till they started speaking more about their favorite books. One thing led to another and they went for a coffee in the same building to continue their conversation.

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This was one event on its own. They met two weeks later, in the same area of the library. They spoke some more about the books they had borrowed the previous time and they went for one more coffee at the same place.  There was some discreet flirt from both sides, accepted equally. No personal details were announced by his side, but she did mention she was engaged. 

They exchanged phone numbers and started immediately texting each other on WhatsApp about the books they both read. They had very similar interests. She liked psychology, he liked management, she liked paranormal, he was into astral projection, she liked botanotherapy, he liked it too. The talks led to another meeting to exchange bought books they had in their possession. So they met and they hit it off real quick. He started speaking about his life, previous girlfriends and trips he had taken, but there was still no mention of children and wife.

The wedding part 5

She left later and went directly to get a taxi. She arrived at the national museum indeed 2 hours later. Her heart was ready to explode. She couldn't believe she would see him, and be with him, albeit secretly, in Dublin!

- What are you doing here, are you crazy? she smiled at him so broadly, her perfect teeth were visible.

- I couldn't stay without seeing you for that long, she hugged her. 

They kissed and they kissed...

- Can we get a coffee?

- Yes, Jacob stayed in the hotel room to enjoy he said.

- Perfect.

They spent the next two hours like teenagers, hugging and teasing each other. She was back very quickly and they continued their day as planned. The secret couple gave a rendezvous for when the trip would be over, however she kept calling him whenever she could align with his plans.

The days passed and they could finally meet at the day they agreed upon.

- What did you tell your wife for your trip?

- I told her I went away for work. I took some stuffed animals for my kids when I got back and they are now their favorites. 

- And your wife? What did you get her?

He said nothing, but kissed her.

- I got her a bracelet, he admitted later. 

- Oh aren't you cheap? She hit him jokingly.

- Stop it, he smiled, I am already guilty. But when I am with you, nothing else matters. You are my everything and you drive me crazy.

- I love you too...

They wouldn't stop kissing.

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One thing led to another and they had steaming hot sex in that cheap hotel room. They would change location often and would rarely meet in the same hotel. The reservations were always in his name and they paid cash. The drill was the same in every room. They would meet, kiss for a couple of minutes and then the clothes would be taken off slowly one by one. The act of sex for them was a ritual, sacred. He could last long on the bed. Long enough till she filled the room with her moans. 

They would cuddle afterwards and share a cigarette. They would proclaim love to each other for hours...

And this time it was the same. They met, they made love and exchanged love words.

The wedding part 4

 The days passed and while in London, she did not find any time to talk to him. But she did, while she was in Dublin. The groom was very tired from all the flying so while he was asleep, she took a stroll and called him.

- I missed you, she exclaimed to him.

- I missed you too. Where are you?

- In Dublin babe! I m having so much fun!! Although now, Jacob is asleep at the hotel. I took a walk as I am not tired and you were my priority.

- Priority my ass, you were lost for 3 days, he growled. 

- Come on baby, don't spoil it now, you know that I cannot also call you whenever I want, because I also don't want to get caught by your wife! Let me remind you that! she pretended to be sweet.  

- Ok, let's make peace now. How have you been, in which hotel are you by the way?

- We are staying at Queen Elisabeth. It is very cosy and Jacob has booked a suite. We are supposed to go for massages later and some hammam.

-Hmm, I am jealous now. But mostly I cannot stand the thought of what he may be doing to you...

- Shh, let's not go there. He is now my husband in any case and we should leave it aside.

- Okay, he said and after some time they hang up.

The next day her phone lit up randomly during the day after they have spoken to their parents. A text message read "hey". From him. She had deleted his number and knew it by heart, just to be sure.

- Who is it honey? Jacob asked.

- Ah my friend Jenna. She is having some tough time with her girlfriend and she probably needs some advice. I will go talk to her to give her some privacy too.

She went to the reception and called him.

- Are you crazy?? she yelled at him.

- Yes, about you, you know that, he replied calmly. Drop everything you do and come ALONE to the national museum in 2 hours. 

- What do you mean "come". Are you... are you.. Are you in Dublin?

- Yes babe, I came to see you.

- But what will I say if he wants to come along?

- Find something. Tell him you are going for a spa or shopping.

- He doesn't mind shopping, so the other was a good idea. I am going to book something just in case.

- Great idea.

She stepped to the reception and while her heart was still pounding, she booked a two hour spa session to their suite and returned to her room.

- All good? Jacob asked her.

- Yeah, as I said, she has some troubles and we were discussing it, but it is quite private, so I won't discuss more details.

- No worries, honey, I understand.

- I booked a spa session in two hours, I feel exhausted.

- Great, I will stay in the room and enjoy the service in that case.

"How convenient", she thought to herself.

The wedding part 3

 Later in the night, the couple went to the singer to thank him personally for his performance. Those two, acted as they have never met before and the night ended a little later.

A message on his phone : "I will be at Brussels, hotel Regina. Don't do any stupidity."

His reply immediate : "I won't. I love you and I want you to be happy."

The next day the couple arrived at Brussels. They left the stuff at the hotel and went for lunch around the city center, spent some time shopping and returned to the hotel. While the groom was showering, she pretended to go for a drink at the bar.

She grabbed the opportunity to call him:

- How are you darling? she asked cheerfully.

- I am missing you, he replied sadly.

- You will be the first person to meet when I am back. I didn't have the time to explain to you, that tomorrow we are going to London for 2 days as well and then flying to Dublin for a couple more...

- What? he exclaimed.

- Ah yes and I didn't finish, then we fly to Copenhagen and finally Stockholm. 

- I wish I was taking you to all these places instead. But I promise you, I will take you to Paris one day.  

She left a bitter laugh but did not say anything for a while.

- You believe me, right? He asked her.

- Yes, baby, I believe you, she sighed. I have to go now, talk to you tomorrow. Please don't call me. I love you, she rushed.

- I love you too.

Beep, beep...

The wedding part 2

The party continued on and everyone was having fun like nothing was going on. Their eyes were wondering around each other at all times, but it was very discreet. The performance of the singer finished but a DJ took on. There was a round two in the toilets, with higher difficulty as there were a lot of people coming and going. she had left the tail of her dress, under the stall door, so he can identify her and enter.

- What will I do without you for 2 weeks? He whimpered again in her ear.

- I don't know baby, but it was high time I looked after my own life, don't you think? She asked politely while looking at his eyes and holding his face.

- Will you at least be calling me? he touched her lips softly.

- At every opportunity! she replied to the kiss with another, deeper.

They stayed there for another minute, holding and kissing each other. 

- Hold on! What did you mean by "high time I looked after my own life"?, he exclaimed.

- I mean, that you already have your family and I wanna look after for my own.

- If you want a kid, I can give you one! he said laughing.

- Come on, now, silly, stop doing that, I am being serious, she said laughing as well.

- I know what you mean, babe, and I totally agree. I am just a little disappointed that you never mentioned that you were getting married today, here. We could have at least, avoided all this, although I may admit I am also enjoying it simultaneously. 

- Yes, okay, this was probably my mistake... Now we have to both go back or else they will be looking for us.

They both returned one after the other and the singer stayed for the remaining of the night, enjoying some whiskey at the bar. All this time he was staring at her, so at some point the bartender started the following dialogue:

- That's the bride, you know...

- I know man, the singer replied.

- I see you stuck at her, so I thought of reminding you. Unless you know her already?

- I 've met her before, he said sharply.

- Ah, okay then, that's why you are looking at her so much?

- No, man, I m watching around what's happening and so own. I 'm trying to see if she is a good match with the groom, out of curiosity, you know...

- Ah, I know...he replied and then left the conversation there.

Merry Christmas!

 Merry Christmas to everyone!! I hope this year keeps you healthy first of all, sane, safe and brings you luck and worthwhile people in your lives! 

The wedding part 1

After the wedding at the party:

The bride is sitting on the chair, towards the stage along with the groom. All the guests are having fun. Everyone has given the congratulations and wishes to the couple. The time for the singer has come. And once he is out, silence ensues. Her eyes do not meet him until she heard his voice. It was him! She recognized him.

She felt dizzy and losing the whole world under her feet. She almost fainted. It did not go unnoticed and people handed her water. The singer continues the performance till he turned his back and faced her. At this moment he was standing still. Unable to continue he improvised. That song he was singing was their song. And now he was standing there, singing at her own wedding. 

None of them knew of this coincidence, as the music was booked by the bride's father as a surprise. And what a surprise it was! The bride starts feeling a little better, but still uncomfortable with the whole situation. She loved the groom, but was having a secret affair with the singer for over 6 months. They both knew about each other's life and were choosing to keep the affair as it was, a secret. A small little pleasure of the day...or week, depending on the schedule!

At some point, part of the performance was to have the bride get up and dance while the singer is singing a specific song (agreed beforehand by all parties). And she did. Although, it was emotional for both of them and they ended the song a little differently: instead of a handheld finale, they ended up hugging each other as a sweet and emotionally flared tango embrace.

Everyone was clapping when he whispered to her ear " I miss you". She glanced at him quickly and left the stage acting shy.

The fun continued for another hour until it was time for a break. The singer gestured secretly to the bride to meet him somewhere out of there. She nodded and they met at the toilets. First she went and he followed few moments later. 

- I didn't know you were getting married baby! he whimpered, while approaching her. I want to kiss you, I missed you.

- We were together last week and I didn't want to upset you. In any case it doesn't change anything. I have been with him and you know it, she whispered as he leaned on her.

They exchanged a soft kiss.

- This is so forbidden, she left out.

- This is so sweet. And so mine... When do I get to see you again, please?

- I don't know. We have the honeymoon tomorrow. I will be gone for 2 weeks.

- 2 weeks?! he exclaimed frightened. And you didn't think of telling me baby? What will I do without you, he said while lifting her chin up. I get mad every time I see you with him or think of him touching you...

- It is the same for me about your wife! she hissed. The time is up, time to return back.

- Not before I take what I want! he demanded. 

He gave her a deep kiss that removed her lipstick. 

-Fuck, my make up is destroyed, but it was worth it! 

She went to apply more lipstick and he returned to the stage. 

Virgo 2

They meet in a nice diner close by. On the way there they exchange trivial information about each other: places she has visited, he has seen them or not, some brief family history and a cosy atmosphere.

They order, dinner arrives and the topic touches the girlfriends and boyfriends. "So, don't you take your partner in your trips?", he asks straightforward. "When I have one, I do!", she replies cheerfully. "But now, she adds, I am a single lady. How about you?". "Single too", he smirks at her. 

The evening moves fast and the one thing brings the other, and he is invited to her place. "Wanna come upstairs for a drink? we can continue this lovely conversation then", she invites. "Surely I do", he accepts.

She pours two glasses of bourbon and hands one to him. They sit on the only couch of the living room, dangerously close to each other. They want to touch each other. He goes first, touches her face lightly and then kisses her softly. She responds and they fall into lust and love. The whole night he is there, spending every second touching and pleasuring her. They don't stop kissing even for a second. The hours pass and they make love like they are alone in the whole planet. 

One for the other. There, in the moment. 

And they lived happily ever after in their own fairytale...

Thursday story- Virgo

She shies away from affection. She is cold and distant. Until she met him. That one guy who intrigues her as a deep dark mystery.

She regularly goes to the café where he works just to see him. The order is always the same: a black coffee, no sugar. She sits and waits to get a glimpse of him. He is tall, black haired and with a nice beard. Only someone like him would intrigue her.

She has her laptop with her to do some work. Does not look at him directly. She knows his name as she heard a colleague of his calling him "Virgo". "Virgo, such a weird name" she thinks to herself while sipping the coffee. He does not know her name but acknowledges her every time. Knows her order. It 's anyways simple. 

She needs someone but does not want to admit it. She has been solo for most of her time. Some occasional fun with cautiousness not to catch any feelings. But him? He is a different story. She is curious on how to approach him, but on the same note, she wants to be chased by him. Almost impossible. He is at work and she is nothing more than a customer. A regular one. A daily one. 

The next day she walks in. "The same?" he asks. "The same", she smiles to him. "Where are you from?", he asks her and finally she sees some light at the end of the tunnel. "Italy", she replies. "You?" she tries to keep the conversation going. "I am from Morocco". "How did you end up here, in the Netherlands?" she curiously asks. "It is a long story, but to make it short I came to work. What's your name by the way?". "It's Amelia" she replies while he is handing her her coffee. "I heard your name is Virgo?", she hesitantly asks. "Yep, that's right!".

They exchange a last glance and she goes to sit by her booth. He cleans around and approaches her. The shop is almost empty and quiet. He wants to talk apparently. "What are you working on every day? I see you with your laptop all the time. It must be something important". "Yes, I am a journalist and I write some articles". "About?" he continues the chat. "Various topics but lately it is about travel mostly. I like seeing different countries and explore the world. And then I like telling people about the experience", she passes the ball to him. "Oh, I see", says and continues cleaning around. "Let me not disturb you then", announces and leaves behind the bar.

"I wish you could disturb me more", she thinks to herself and goes back to writing. 

"Can I sit here?" a customer asks her. "I saw you alone and I thought of joining if you don't mind". "Actually, I mind. I am working at the moment, so I would like to enjoy my coffee in peace if you don't mind! " snaps at him. 

Few moments later Virgo approaches her. "Are you always this cold?" he asks her. "Not to everyone and not all the time. Dutch men are not my type", replies calmly. "And who is your type?" he smirks. "Something more... exotic let's say!" and leans back to her chair. They both laugh. The awkward laughter that signifies that something is in the air. They both know what she meant. But what she does not know is if he is single. Therefore her expectations may be false. She doesn't want to play this game. Not in his field at least.

"I am finishing my shift soon, would you like to grab some dinner together?", he finally asks her. "Sure, we could do that. Anyways I am almost finished too", says while trying to control her emotions.

Where will this lead?

At the altar

 At the altar, she was ready to get married. Till the question popped up "anyone has any objection can speak now or be silenced forever"

- Don't do it Malena! 

A voice from the back of the church. Silence everywhere. 

She turns and looks at him. She cannot believe that he is present, at that day, there.

- Can I talk to you at least? says with trembling voice. 

She leaves the altar and they go out. The groom cannot believe his eyes but does not interfere. He stays there. Whispers all around.

- Go, he tells her.

- What are you doing here? she asks.

- I came to stop you from this mistake.

- You have no say in my life.

- I love you and I will love you.

- But we cannot be together. You have a family!

- I know, but I couldn t stop myself from coming here and talking to you. I am ready to leave everything behind for you.

- No! Your kids will hate me forever. And this man over there is the love of my life.

- I am the love of your life. 

- ...

- Tell me Malena. What are you thinking?

- You should go.

- Not before I kiss you, he tells her and grabs her.

- No, she says and pushes him away. 

She goes back inside.

- We can continue, she says and the groom's eyes are shimmering like no other time!

She got married and lived a happy life without her "love of her life". He would bother her from time to time, but she made it clear to him that this contact hurts her like nothing else and thus they gave an end to it few weeks later. And this love, did not survive to tell the story...

Το τσιγάρο

Το ένα τσιγάρο μετά το άλλο. "Θα το κόψω" μου λέω. Κι ανάβω άλλο ένα. Γιατί; Επειδή λείπει. Λείπει αυτό το κάτι από τη ζωή μου. Δεν είναι εδώ, είναι κάπου μακριά. Άπιαστο. Και το δαχτυλίδι μου καίει τα δάχτυλα. 

Θα έρθει. Θα έρθει...

Ένα φιλί και μου δίνει ζωή. Μια αγκαλιά και χάνομαι. Που είναι όμως; Δεν είναι εδώ. 

Θα έρθει...

Song of the period

 

"Who is who" part 4

Days pass with them meeting secretly. Kisses have been exchanged and words of lust. The meetings in the office are silent, almost non- existent. 

"When can I see you again?" asks.

"I cannot meet you any time soon, I m traveling abroad".

"Ha, can I join you?"

"That would be wonderful but impossible. They will be on to us".

Nods with understanding. 

"Then I 'll wait", says.

"And that is a very good choice of yours!"

Rumors started spreading in the office about something that happened and the flight back would be delayed.

"So, when will you be back at work?" the manager asks.

"It seems like I need another 3 days here, due to the bad weather".

"Unforeseeable, I understand", she says. 

A call goes out of the blue.

"Do you feel lonely there now?"

"Since I cannot feel your smell on me, yes".

"Do you regret not taking me with you then?"
"Always".

The phone hangs and the conversation ends.

The three days are done and there is another meeting in the office. All of the office employees are present. The eyes between them: normal. No-one must suspect anything.

There are flowers on the desk with a card "we missed you". Smiles when it's seen.

She goes to his office to give him some reports and closes the door behind. 

While handing over the documents a whisper:

"When will I see you again?

"Soon" says quickly.

Leaves.

 

Einy aleik - Nancy Ajram

Instead of studying, my mind is singing:

What math and work have taught me

So, I am taking a statistics course as part of my studies. It is mandatory of course, otherwise I wouldn't even imagine of taking it as I am avoiding anything that has to do with math. Simply because I don't understand the logic behind. 

However, my friend Stefana is taking her personal time and teaching me all what she can on that topic. She is in the same year as me, but she has passed all the courses, while I did not. Anyways, I feel like some good progress has been made and I would like to recap what all I have learnt, but not in terms of theories and such. More generally, along with my work:

• I became more organized --> still work in progress, I know I can do better
• I am more accurate --> as well in progress, because attention to details was not my strong suit.
• I m becoming independent. I feel this part will never be complete, but I somehow need to pass the course, therefore I signed up for extracurricular training for that reason.
• I know how to use some formulas - it applies also on excel which is something I truly enjoy (wow, I know). I 'm definitely not an expert in excel, but I 'm also not a beginner. 
• I listen better. This impacts on how much I can sit through a class, meeting or whatever course I am taking at the moment. 
• I study better --> results will show, but this degree ain't taking me only 3 years, that's for sure.
• I am more determined (to pass the course, to improve in my work etc)
• I am more confident that I can manage few things.
• I know how to write math, and this is quite important for statistics as the first step is to understand what's needed to move on.
  

I feel it is important to know where you come from and what improvements you have done and this is the reason for this post. And noone is going to recognize that for you, you have to do it yourself.