I ve thought that in Liberec I would find friends. But I was wrong. I invested my time to people who don t consider me (back) as a friend. I am only their toy, to pass some free time, to have a coffee. They give me a chance,but then they change their mind, because I probably do something wrong.
Some people just want to fuck me and it can happen, so i take it as something normal. But no one wants to find the real ME. No one respects my time or give me theirs. No one believes in me actually.
Why??
I am bored of being just a toy.
And the worst thing is that some people I met before, like my fiance more than me. So they somehow reject me.
All the fucking time is someone else there..... Always....
Unfortunately I will never be like him. It is possible that I will never even like my self, the way it is.
Some people just want to fuck me and it can happen, so i take it as something normal. But no one wants to find the real ME. No one respects my time or give me theirs. No one believes in me actually.
Why??
I am bored of being just a toy.
And the worst thing is that some people I met before, like my fiance more than me. So they somehow reject me.
All the fucking time is someone else there..... Always....
Unfortunately I will never be like him. It is possible that I will never even like my self, the way it is.