A page of my diary.
10th of Jan 2015
I was standing there, looking at those amazing eyes, that I had never realized before how stunning they are. She was playfull smiling and she reminded me a tiger which is sure that it is gonna eat its prey. No matter what. That was... me then? After one year? How could I will have became such a person? So powerfull and so self-assured? I let her enjoy my confussion as I new that she would be even able to trick my mind. Well, she was the boss at that moment.
-So, she said, I have some things to tell you. Have you accepted me as yourself already or do you need more time?
-You know, the appearance is the same. I feel like I am watching myself in the mirror. And my instinct says that you are telling me the truth.
- Great! So my first advise is to never stop trusting your instinct. You will be fooled at some pointof your life sooner or later. It is unavoidable. But never, ever, break this trust on your, actually, self.
- As it seems to me, you know that f@cked up days are coming...
- Not exactly. And if so, you are not screwed up. You already know that sometimes you only want to surrender. But, do no do it. Just stay back and rethink of what you have achieved so far.
-Easy to say.
-It is even easier to be done. Easier than you think.
Suddenly I felt depressed. Why is she telling me all these stuff? And why now? I wanted to ask her so many questions. I waw tempted to ask her what it is going to happen to me. She must new. However, she interrupted my thought all alone:
-I will not tell you exactly what it is going to happen, but this year you are going to meet a very special person. And that person will be in our life...forever!
-At least tell me, is it a girl or a boy?
She laughs and says:
-How can I take all the fun ou of it? you like mysteries. So, go and figure it out. However, do not search for it. It is going to come to you all itself.
I could only hear her carefully. She knew stuff that were about to happen to me. That was the best person to give me advise for my own life. I felt quite better, but curiosity was still there. I looked at her. She only smiled and she told me to take care of my self (oh, how ironic), she then stood up and left...
So, I thought to myself "what is it going to happen now?"