The fear of letting go (BPD related)

Therapy helps. Any kind of therapy helps in something, as a general statement. You just need to find the proper therapy for the specific problem/ issue you are facing with. Not all fits everyone in such case. Some therapies are proven more successful in some cases (see depression, BPD etc) whereas other therapies are not so much of a help in comparison. Let me know if you would like to know any specifics in the comments.

Anyway, I want to speak of the fear of success. 

This is an irrational fear of success, where you technically sabotage yourself because of that. You fear that if you are successful your life will change and who knows you may not even recognize yourself anymore. This fear is particularly tricky to avoid when you are doing therapy sometimes especially if there is a tendency/ disorder that underlies a saboteur. BPD is a suspect of this of course, therefore I am bringing it up. 

How to work around it?

Think positively. You are not losing anything, you are still you, without the negative aspects of the disorder. Without having someone sabotaging your efforts to becoming a better person. Without having to embarrass yourself or betray something/someone.

Don't ruminate. Don't let yourself fall into that trap of "what if". 

Ask for help. Discuss it with your friends and family or your therapist even. It is not embarrassing and it is not you who feel like that only. We are many.

Be gentle with yourself and take one step at a time. Every day you reset. You get one more chance. Use it wisely! 

You? What other thoughts do you have to battle with? What is your cope mechanism?